Frequently when I feel as if I want to share something deep, something 'weighty', that's when I have the least to say.
I want to draw again; in the mood, but I don't dig out the kind of paper I want to draw on. Blah.
There is a new protocol for managing fibromyalgia I've just been informed about that uses, of all things, mucinex. However, it requires avoiding all types of foods, topicals, meds, which I'm not very good at. After all, looke how 'successful' I've been at keeping kosher! Additionally, one goes through a period of getting worse before getting better. I don't know if I can deal with that!
I've also been looking at the topic of true self and how we know when our thoughts and feelings are a reflection of the self we were created to be vs. the interference of environment, disease, whatever.
A friend here in blogger stated recently that she disliked using antidepressants as she wanted to know what she is 'really thinking'. She believes she can only do that when she is not medicated.
This has never made sense to me, especially with my own successful treatment with antidepressants.
You are not your depression, nor are you the symptoms of your depression. Suppose the mind is a window through which the true self shines. That window becomes dirty. There is a way to clean the mirror so that your true self shines more clearly. Wouldn't you want to clean, and keep clean, the window.
It is like saying I'm not going to take pain medication for my arthritis or insulin for my diabetes; that living with pain or high blood sugars are the 'real you'.
Pain is not normal--physical or mental! Pain is the indication that something is wrong which needs to be fixed or controlled.
I could never think my true thoughts or be my true self until I was successfully treated. And I cannot imagine going back to the pain I experienced.
I hate it when people tell me they have tried antidepressants and they did not work. GPs, family practitioners and internists are not qualified to prescribe them. It takes a psychiatrist. Depression is not the common cold of mental health and should not be blown off as such.