The Thing

There's this thing I keep on running into.  It's an internal thing.  It keeps me from doing alot of things I know would be good for me.

It keeps me from making a dental appt.
It keeps me from setting up some bills on auto payment.
It keeps me from making medical appts....
...from doing laundry.....from getting the car in for maintenance.

I don't know what this thing is.  I've been in therapy most of the last twenty years and haven't figured it out.

Sometimes I wonder if I need to know what it is.  Maybe all I need is a coach to get me over the hump of this thing so I make progress in my life.

But a morbid curiosity sometimes wants to know.